Boyfriends

[dieewigenacht]

And any other kind of serious sentimental relationship, seriously.

I don't want it.
I don't need it.

What is so special and tragic about that?


I mean, yes, it's been three years since I had a boyfriend (And that relationship was somehow abusive) and I don't really feel like having another, mainly because I don't really understand the fuzz about boyfriends (or the lack of one)

Yeah sure, hugs and kisses and love and sex and stuff. I get it, and actually it would be kinda nice in certain situations, but my life can't be revolving around someone, let alone a guy who will must likely fuck up after a while.

True, I might be scared to initiate a new relationship, and there's reasons for that. As I said, my last relationship could be considered abusive, and it's been so long since I actually dated or flirted or did stuff that I really don't know how to do it (I think I never knew to start with) but really? I just don't see the point.

Usually it doesn't bothers me. Hell, usually I don't think about it. But sometimes the theme will appear and then the shocked and somehow saddened expressions of other students will just turn the conversation into a discussion where I try to defend my point that "Relationships, specially at our age, aren't something as serious as you people believe, and certainly not as attention worthy"
I hate those discussions because I always end up being treated with something not unlike pity, which just pisses me off.

Comments

[dieewigenacht.livejournal.com]

I personally don't think that attempting serious relationships while taking a heavy course load are a good idea at all

This.
This so much.

I mean, my course isn't exactly loaded (To be honest I have plenty of time in my hands, a little too much actually) but let's be honest. I don't trust myself to be on a relationship or in some sort of compromise, and I sure as hell don't trust others.
Also, I've said it a lot of times before, and I'll say it once again:

I'm a University Student, my parents worked really hard to pay for this and I'm working hard to have an scholarship. Whatever I do here will be important, having a boyfriend would just complicate things.


I do realize that relationships can be harmful in certain situations, that is probably one of the huge list of reasons I don't (and won't) pursue a relationship anytime near.

(Also, I think that almost everyone my age is just a retard, so that might be a reason as well)

[cursor-mundi.livejournal.com]

I make it a policy not to date retards, but even I slip up sometimes! :D

And, really, if you're happy? Then there's no need to rush to change things. If your social circle doesn't get it, they won't get it; I have friends who I love dearly who go from relationship to relationship and are always asking why they're miserable, and I just grin at them and ask if they really want me to answer. Gotta do what's right for you.