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dieewigenacht) wrote2010-01-14 10:43 pm
dieewigenacht) wrote2010-01-14 10:43 pm
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Boyfriends
And any other kind of serious sentimental relationship, seriously.
I don't want it.
I don't need it.
What is so special and tragic about that?
I mean, yes, it's been three years since I had a boyfriend (And that relationship was somehow abusive) and I don't really feel like having another, mainly because I don't really understand the fuzz about boyfriends (or the lack of one)
Yeah sure, hugs and kisses and love and sex and stuff. I get it, and actually it would be kinda nice in certain situations, but my life can't be revolving around someone, let alone a guy who will must likely fuck up after a while.
True, I might be scared to initiate a new relationship, and there's reasons for that. As I said, my last relationship could be considered abusive, and it's been so long since I actually dated or flirted or did stuff that I really don't know how to do it (I think I never knew to start with) but really? I just don't see the point.
Usually it doesn't bothers me. Hell, usually I don't think about it. But sometimes the theme will appear and then the shocked and somehow saddened expressions of other students will just turn the conversation into a discussion where I try to defend my point that "Relationships, specially at our age, aren't something as serious as you people believe, and certainly not as attention worthy"
I hate those discussions because I always end up being treated with something not unlike pity, which just pisses me off.
I don't want it.
I don't need it.
What is so special and tragic about that?
I mean, yes, it's been three years since I had a boyfriend (And that relationship was somehow abusive) and I don't really feel like having another, mainly because I don't really understand the fuzz about boyfriends (or the lack of one)
Yeah sure, hugs and kisses and love and sex and stuff. I get it, and actually it would be kinda nice in certain situations, but my life can't be revolving around someone, let alone a guy who will must likely fuck up after a while.
True, I might be scared to initiate a new relationship, and there's reasons for that. As I said, my last relationship could be considered abusive, and it's been so long since I actually dated or flirted or did stuff that I really don't know how to do it (I think I never knew to start with) but really? I just don't see the point.
Usually it doesn't bothers me. Hell, usually I don't think about it. But sometimes the theme will appear and then the shocked and somehow saddened expressions of other students will just turn the conversation into a discussion where I try to defend my point that "Relationships, specially at our age, aren't something as serious as you people believe, and certainly not as attention worthy"
I hate those discussions because I always end up being treated with something not unlike pity, which just pisses me off.
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(hugs!) Long story short, people are idiots and frequently can be mistaken for herd animals.
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And it's something to be worried about, and after a while even angered. A lot of my "friends" (They are nice people, I just can't think about them as friends) seem to believe that having a relationship is what college is for (And parties, don't forget the parties).
And although I understand some parts of it I just can't relate. To be honest I don't want to relate with that kind of people, or to be around them at all.
Sometimes however it is unavoidable, and when the fact that I have no boyfriend and that I don't want surfaces, then I'm in for a world of suffering, because god, this people just won't understand that relationships complicate everything.